A favorite quote of mine, from a very obscure (yet good) book:
“Don’t look back, never look back. How often do people tell themselves that after an experience that is exceptionally good (or exceptionally bad?)? Often, I suppose. And the advice usually goes unheeded. Humans were built to look back; that’s why we have that swivel joint in our necks.” – Stephen King, “11/22/63”
You guessed it…we’re going to look back. Yes, it’s that time of year where your favorite bloggers (or the ones you simply follow just to be nice, and we appreciate that!) share their recaps of the year, as well as their New Years Resolutions.
(Except they won’t call them resolutions, because it’s suddenly trendy to NOT make resolutions.)
Here’s what you need to know about my 2015:
1. We moved.
Finally. And if you recall, my only resolution last year was to move. So, I win 2015.
It goes without saying that having the kids closer to their mom and dad has made life much easier on numerous levels. I’m so happy about that. It also goes without saying (well, at least to those of you that follow Geoff and I on Facebook) that we are less than thrilled with the Myrtle Beach area. I won’t air all of my grievances, but let’s just say the combination of finances, lack of jobs, lack of trails, and an overabundance of concrete and traffic…it’s been tough. But, we are hanging in there, and we certainly are giving this place our best shot. We’ve met some incredible people and had some really fun adventures. And the beach itself? Gorgeous.
2. I got rid of a lot of stuff.
I was going to write an entire blog post about this, and perhaps I still will. But to briefly sum it up for the sake of this blog post, I got rid of probably 75% , if not more, of my possessions. It was one of the hardest things I ever did. It was also one of the greatest things I ever did. Getting rid of “stuff” not only lessens anxiety that you didn’t even realize was connected to clutter (because you might not even perceive it as clutter), but it truly makes you realize how unimportant material items are. In turn, you “want” and “need” less. It’s pretty incredible and freeing.
3. My career focus shifted…again.
In 2014 my gym time was mainly spent working the front desk and floor shifts, writing was my main focus. But here in SC I’m back in the gym training a calendar full of clients. It’s an awkward number where it isn’t enough clients to pay the bills, but it isn’t few enough to allow me to thoroughly focus on writing. You may have noticed this from the lack of blog posts.
I’ve realized that I really, REALLY miss working in social media and blogging. I miss having more freelance work. Unfortunately this field is sort of like a rolling snowball. If the snowball sits still, it never grows. The less I write, the less opportunities come my way. So I’m feeling sort of stagnant. (More on this in the 2016 section below)
4. I started running a lot more.
When we first got to Myrtle Beach we didn’t know what to do with ourselves. So we started running. A lot. Which leads me to the next point…
5. I jumped ship from the OCR world and dove into the Ultra world.
And I don’t regret it one bit.
I hate to generalize an entire group of people or sport, but the whole “Beast Mode 24/7” elitist attitude that was popping up everywhere in the obstacle course racing (OCR) world really started to bum me out. There was a massive shift in the OCR culture from people who genuinely wanted to do something unique, push their limits, AND help others succeed…to something much more selfish and full of drama. I really don’t want to be a whiner, but I know I’m not the only one who saw it.
Plus, I was just burnt out on racing.
So I walked away. Forever? That’s yet to be determined. There are way too many amazing memories and true friends to close that door 100%. But I purposefully walked away from OCR to try and get my mojo back, and found my way into the ultra running world. It started because two of my favorite race directors, one of which was previously largely tied to one of the largest OCR companies in the world, started a new race company in Vermont. Geoff and I signed up for the 48 hour trail race option because a) all of our friends would be there (peer pressure) and b) why the hell not. We ended up running 52 ish miles, and while it was difficult at the time, once the dust settled I realized I was capable of more.
Other 2015 fun things worth noting:
1. I’m going to run the Grand Canyon.
I haven’t mentioned it here on the blog yet because I still can’t believe it’s actually happening. But the story goes a little something like this: at one point a fellow blogger whom I adore but have never actually met, Heather from Just a Colorado Gal, and I decided that we should make a Rim to Rim to Rim (R2R2R) attempt together. It was seriously no more than a comment on a Facebook status update.
Fast forward to a few months ago, I get an email from her saying that she and another blogger I adore, Heidi from Banana Buzzbomb, decided they were actually going to do it, and asked me to come along. Joining us would be new friend, Logan of Mountains and Miles.
OF COURSE I wasn’t going to say no.
Despite the fact that we now live at sea level with virtually no inclines to train on, and we are very strapped for cash due to the job market here, I’m GOING to make this happen. Creative fundraising options are brewing in my head at the moment (and no, it will not simply be a “Go Fund Me” page. I’ve got to legitimately earn this trip.) In the meantime, I’m doing my due diligence on our local trail, as well as the Stairmaster at the gym.
Don’t I say this all of the time? I do. I’m the girl who cried yoga. Except for the last few months I’ve actually been going, well, at least twice per month to yoga. It started mostly because my employer requires it (tough job, am I right?). Hell, I’m currently writing this post sitting in my sweaty post Body Flow class clothes.
Come to find out, I really loathe how horrible I am at yoga, which is exactly the reason why I want to practice more frequently. I truly hate every single minute of class, but when it’s over, find myself thinking “hey, let’s do that again!”. Kind of how I used to feel about running…
3. See the following, in person, in the wild:
- Mountain Goat
- Sea Lion
This pretty much covers all of North America, so needless to say I need to travel in order to accomplish this task. See what I just did there?
4. Find a Better Work Balance.
I love my job at the gym. I love working one on one with clients.
But I love (and miss) writing. I can’t even begin to describe the unbelievable opportunities that have come with this surprise writing career. I don’t want that to end.
So I need to find a better way to tackle both career paths at once…while not ignoring my duties as a mom, partner, and athlete.
5. Finish that 100 miler.
Which one? Doesn’t matter. We haven’t reached white whale status yet, I haven’t run far enough to consider any of my attempts thus far “so close”. More than halfway, yes, but barely. But in 2016, I want that 100 mile finish line. And I’m also going to buy myself a kickass belt to put my buckle on.
6. Do some other cool sh*t.
Spontaneity is key. Though if I need some inspiration, it’s worth noting that I only have 6.2 years left to finish my 40 by 40 list. Perhaps I’ll start with adding things to the list that I’ve thought of since I wrote it two years ago. And here’s hoping I can blog about it, complete with the blurry cell phone pictures you all know and love (ha).
And of course…I hope you’ll stick around to read about it. As always, thanks for all of your support. It has been a wonderful year, and I’m thrilled at the opportunity to start a new one. Happy 2016!