Last Updated on November 8, 2014 by Heather Hart, ACSM EP, CSCS
Isn’t it ironic that my slowest, most miserable marathon, could turn out to be the best race experience I’ve ever had?
Well it did, and it gave me a much needed wake up call proving that the BEST races aren’t always your fastest. The story is long, but one I’d love to share, if you have the time.
Friday, younger sister Cathy and I made the short (about an hour and a half) drive up to Wilmington NC. We met up with Holly and Jim at our hotel, hit up Starbucks, and headed down to the expo. Walking very closely behind us to the expo was Jaron Tate from season 3 of the Biggest Loser. I’m not 100% sure it was him, as I didn’t have the guts to say “hey are you Jaron from the Biggest loser?” But I knew he was going to be there, and with a quick google search of his picture, my sisters both agreed: it was him. Slight tangent from the race report, but I think it’s humorous that I’m 2 for 2 when it comes to spotting Biggest Loser contestants and 140.6 races- Tara Costa at Lake Placid and Jaron Tate at Beach2Battleship.
We picked up our race packets and did the usual expo perusing.
Me, Holly, and Cathy. Cathy hasn’t been bitten by the running bug yet, but we keep dragging her along , peer pressuring her the way only siblings can do.
the view from our hotel room!
The goods from packet pickup…best race goody bag ever! I ended up buying a waterbottle too. As if I don’t have enough of those already, haha!
The rest of Friday consisted of dropping off Holly’s bike and transition bags, and other crazy events that only seem to happen when we are together. Like, trying to take a shortcut behind transition…through the wilderness. (both of my sisters are in this picture, if you look really closely!)
SATURDAY: Before I made the commitment to run the marathon as part of a relay team, I had signed up to volunteer for the race. When I received my volunteer assignment, swim finish, I knew I could still commit to both, as I would have plenty of time to rest between the swim finish and the start of the run. Looking back, getting up at 5:00 am and proceeding to stand outside in the cold for another 5 hours, only to run a marathon later that afternoon PROBABLY wasn’t the best idea.
T-1, about 5:45 am, and COLD!
That said, if you EVER get a chance to volunteer at a race, DO IT. It’s incredibly rewarding and FUN. My job details included everything from directing athletes towards transition, spectator crowd control (endurance athletes have some of the BEST fans…but MAN they can be pushy! haha!), collecting glasses to bring from the start to the finish, and even some body marking thrown in there. And of course, CHEER LEADING! I was also able to get in some pictures of a few of my friends as they passed (unfortunately, I missed my sister’s swim finish as I was at the swim start for the half distance at the time…)
My teammate, Eric, was out of the water in about 45 minutes. 45 minutes for a 2.4 mile swim = INSANELY fast! Apparently the current and rising tide was working in every one’s benefit! (note to self…if I ever decide to tackle 140.6, or even 70.3….DO THIS RACE!!!)
After my volunteer duties were finished, I drove back to our hotel, changed, ate, and hung out for a bit. Eventually Jim (brother in law), Cathy (sister) and I headed over to T2 where I was to meet Ron, the cyclist for my relay team. As soon as we got off the water taxi, I was stopped by a woman who asked me if my name was Heather. I said yes….and she said “My name is Heather too, I read your blog!” How awesome! My little sister laughed at me, she thought the whole thing was hysterical (I have an inkling she thinks my blogging is a bit nerdy, haha). Anyway, I was so flattered by the whole thing, but at the same time in such a daze over my impending marathon, that I just mumbled a few words to her and went on my way. So, Heather, if you are reading this, I apologize for running off so quickly! It was great to meet you and I hope your husband had an amazing race!
I snacked and drank water for what felt like HOURS on end. I was starting to get super nervous. Team mate Ron showed up, posting an awesome 5:45 ish for a 112 mile ride. Don’t worry, I was about to completely ruin that speedy first 2/3 for them, haha. I got my chip, and took off.
It was about 1:30 pm, in the mid 60’s, and just PERFECT for running. I was STOKED. The run course was somewhat hilly. Nothing HUGE other than two big bridges (one on the interstate, and one draw bridge) all within the first couple of miles. Check out the elevation map (I think you can click on it to view it larger)
This course was an out and back: out 6.5 miles, turn around, back 6.5 to T2, turn around and do it again for a total of 26.2 miles. I thought I would HATE this, running the same course 4 times, but actually it was kind of nice.
Mile 1- 8:50
Mile 2- 8:51
Did I mention those were both up and over two bridges? One of which, a draw bridge, which contained about 100 yards of grating. INCREDIBLY awkward to run over! I thought I was going to trip and fall! I was proud of myself for running them (since I’m hill deficient here…) but I’d lean towards saying I once again started off too quickly.
Mile 3- 9:31 -this included a quick porta potty stop. yes, already. I had to go at T2, but I was so afraid the second I went Ron would finish and think I never showed up to run, haha
Mile 4- 9:26 This is more like it!
Mile 5- 9:32
Mile 6- 9:21
Mile 7- 10:55 another porta potty stop. Better safe than sorry, right?
Mile 8- 9:31
These first 8 miles were AWESOME. The run through downtown Wilmington and out to a park were just beautiful. There was actually a wedding going on in the park we ran by, complete with Journey playing as the bride was walking from her limo to enter the ceremony. It made me smile, and wonder if the bride was utterly pissed off that we were all interfering with her ceremony (I watch Bridezillas way too much!). The aid stations at every mile were great, and the volunteers were all awesome. I was on cloud nine. And then…
Mile 9- 10:17… I slowly being to crumble.
YES, again.
In being TERRIFIED of having stomach issues again, I was incredibly hesitant with nutrition. I started off only drinking water and taking 2 sports beans every 2 miles. I didn’t bring gel, I didn’t bring nuun. About this time, my energy was instantly zapped, and I was cramping. Lack of nutrition and electrolytes, no doubt. Not only was I slowing down, but the calf pain was causing me to walk a few strides here and there
Mile 10 10:28
Mile 11 10:32
Mile 12 10:52 uggh not these bridges again!
Mile 13 11:49 walked most of that overpass.
Back at T2 there was the turn around with the Run special needs bag. I was handed mine and took out another bag of sport beans…and that was it. At that point, it was still warm out, and I thought if it cooled down, I’d put on my gloves and borrowed arm warmers (still waiting on mine from fed-ex!) . I left the long sleeve shirt behind. I’d regret that later…
Mile 14 -12:42 back over that last overpass AGAIN. This would prove to be the worst part of an out and back…finishing at the bottom of a hill only to turn around and run back up it again. I started to panic a little. How can I be this tired ALREADY? I have to do that whole run all over again.
Mile 15-12:26 Bridge #2. For the third time. I would face it once more before the day was done.
Mile 16-15:29. I finally made it over the two bridges, and my stomach started to turn. NO FREAKING WAY. NO NO NO. NOT again. UGGH. I hit up the first porta potty I could to try, um, empty any contents I could before they started wreaking havoc. It only somewhat worked. But more than anything, emotionally, I was done. I was pissed. This wasn’t fair. Why can’t I have a break? Why can’t I have a good race for once?It was cold. The sun was slowly starting to set and there was a steady, cold breeze. I had put the arm warmers on (already lost my favorite pair of gloves that were tucked into my spi-belt, ugh) but they only did so much. My legs were cramping, and the more I walked the colder I got.
Mile 17 – 15:22. My fingers were numb, my calves were on fire. I hadn’t stopped for anything to drink or eat since mile 12. I was in that “this is really miserable” daze that I get into, and just forgot. It was bad. I started to cry a little, in between my shivering. I still had 9 whole miles to go. 9 miles , in this condition, seemed impossible.
Mile 18: 18:30. I got to the aid station, sat down on the curb, and started crying. And by crying, I mean, downright sobbing. I couldn’t stop shaking. I was so pissed at myself. I felt at that moment I just had no business being out there. I wasn’t cut out for marathons, period. Why did I think this race was going to be any different than Baltimore? Apparently I’m just not an endurance runner. I need to just give up on this dream. Give up on a PR, give up on Boston, give up on 50 states. All of these people around me had already done a 2.4 mile swim and a 112 mile bike ride, and they were STILL running. I couldn’t even run 14 freaking miles. I take all of this time away from my family, from my studies, and for what? Nothing. I can’t do this. I wanted to quit, I absolutely 100% had my mind made up on that. I knew I’d be letting down my teammates, and everyone else cheering me on, but I was just miserable, and didn’t care. If a volunteer had come up to me at that moment, I would have quit. I would have handed them my chip and said, call someone to take me back to transition please, I’m done.
Thankfully, no one seemed to notice me sitting there in a pathetic, snotty heap.
I don’t know why, but after a few minutes, I just stood up. Still crying, still shivering, I stood up and kept moving forward. After a few minutes I had somewhat composed myself, and looked around. LOOK at these people, Heather! LOOK AT THEM!! Forget all things physical, the mental strength of people who tackle an Ironman distance race is just awe inspiring. They have done so much today. If you give up on ONLY a marathon, you are doing these people, these people who may be out here for another 6 hours, a huge dishonor. I told myself to quit being such a freaking drama queen about MY problems and to get my ass moving. Besides, it would be the only way to warm up. So that’s what I did. And it worked.
Mile 19: 16:24. I finally hit the turn around, and was on my last stretch to the finish. Knowing that instantly changed my outlook. At this point, any hopes for a PR were loooong gone. But the race was not over. Let’s make the best of it, shall we? I came up to the next aid station. A volunteer asked me what I needed. I told him, I’m not sure. So I strolled over to what would be known as the “Ironman buffet” and dug in. Remember how I mentioned I had stopped eating? Certainly this had put a damper on my attitude. So I helped myself to some grapes, a piece of banana, and some animal cookies. They were the best thing I had put in my stomach ALL DAY! And then someone handed me a some glow sticks. Pink and purple, to match my shirt. I don’t care how old you are, glow sticks, outside at night, are FUN!
Mile 20- 14:44 The best mile of this race. The sun had set. While the race directors had claimed the entire run course would be well lit, they weren’t 100% accurate on that statement. We were somewhere in the park (remember, the one with the wedding?) and you could barely notice the outline of other runners, never mind the path under your feet. All of a sudden, I saw the outline of someone heading in the oppostie direction…and a bright yellow livestrong shirt. My eyes darted to their race bib, which I could barely make out in the dark. 506…HOLLY!!! My sister!!! Holly was on her second attempt at the 140.6 distance. She had suffered hyponatremia and was pulled off the bike course of Ironman USA (Lake Placid) at the half way point earlier in the summer. It broke her heart as much as it broke the rest of ours. She had trained her ASS off for that race and it didn’t end the way we had all hoped. It was in her heart and soul, but that day, her body wouldn’t cooperate. Beach 2 Battleship was HER redemption race. Seeing her, 7 miles into her run, with a huge smile on her face, was worth EVERYTHING. I gave her the biggest hug ever and told her how proud I was of her. I knew right then and there she had this race. I ran/walked/shuffled away with a huge smile on my face as well.
Mile 21 14:05. Run/walk/shuffle. Chat with the volunteers, eat some more animal crackers off of the buffet,enjoy the fact that I am lucky enough to participate in such an amazing event. Smile, and Repeat.
Mile 22 – 12:52
Mile 23 – 14:18
Mile 24 – 13:16 I walked when i had to, and never got down on myself about it. I smiled in awe at the people headed in the other direction, just a few miles into their marathon course. I knew they had a long way to go, and I knew that they would endure. I ran through the downtown area, and politely smiled at the people who cheered me on and said “YEAH 619!! YOU ARE AN IRONMAN!” I felt as though I needed a sign saying “I’m just running the relay, but thank you all the same!” I have such, such respect for the race that I hated having anyone suggest I was worthy of the title! I know they meant well, and I appreciated the spectators.
I enjoyed running in the dark, on interstate no less. That’s a once in a lifetime opportunity! I passed a young girl running with a prosthetic leg. She was a half ironman participant. I had seen her 4 times on the run. I would finish my very slow 26.2 miles in less time than it would take her to finish 13.1 miles. I told her how freaking AMAZING she was as I passed her by. I’m sure she had heard it all day long, but I hope she knows it’s true. THAT is the kind of endurance that should be applauded.
Mile 25 -12:38
Mile 26- 12:51 Ahh those bridges! I appreciated the fact that I wouldn’t have to see them again tonight. Towards the top of the second bridge/overpass, there was a lull in traffic. No headlights = PITCH BLACK. It was crazy. I made a comment to a man I was about to pass about the darkness, and we began to chat. He told me this was his first Ironman, and his wife was somewhere on the course behind him. I think the conversation was a very welcome distraction for both of us. That last mile in the dark, on a very empty stretch, could have gone on forever.
the last 0.62 miles (according to Garmin, the race was a bit long!)- 6:32. I congratulated the guy I was running with for his finish and new Ironman status. He asked if I thought we would finish under 12 hours. I saw the clock ahead that read 11:52. I knew that we only had a few hundred yards to go and promised him he would have that , if not a sub 11:55. I congratulated him once again, and took off. I wanted this race to be over. It’s funny the surge of energy you can have at the end of the race. Too bad my legs didn’t have this in them for the other 26, haha!
I crossed the finish line. 11:54:20 for our team. 5:21:40 for me. My slowest marathon time yet. But I couldn’t help but smile. A volunteer came up to me with a Mylar blanket and said “I don’t care what you say sweetie, you HAVE to wear this blanket” . I said “TRUST me, I’m not complaining! I’m frozen!” and she just wrapped me up really tight. I was given a BEAST of a medal (it puts Disney medals to shame) and a 140.6 FINISHER shirt, which I don’t think I’d ever have the guts to wear in public, as I am highly undeserving of one of these! Maybe I’ll sharpie “relay” under the finisher part, haha! I found my teammates who were waiting right there at the finish line for me. They congratulated me and thanked me for doing the “hard part”. I apologized for blowing the race, haha. Such awesome guys, I really doubt they cared.
This race was an eye opener for me. It may take me 5 more marathons before I reach a P.R. It may take me 20 more marathons before I get a Boston qualifying time. But should that matter? No. What matters is that I LOVE running. Fast or slow. It’s not about your finishing time, it’s about the experience. And that experience is simply what YOU make of it. YES , I want to train harder. Yes, I want to be faster. But in the end, it’s all about doing what you love. I am thankful for this race, for it was a learning experience, and in the end, a really, really fun time. Thank you for ALL of the support from each and every one of you. I appreciate it more than words could ever express!
But the most amazing part of my weekend, my whole reason for being here, was to see this:
Please forgive the screaming right into the camera…but you would do the same thing if your sister was simply as kick ass as mine is.
I don’t care if Ford and their sponsorhip wasn’t here to allow an announcer to tell you this, so I will instead. HOLLY SHOEMAKER….YOU ARE AN IRONMAN!!!
Even with a flat tire she finished with a nice 42 minute cushion before the cut off. 140.6 miles. (I’m sure she will post her Ironman story sometime soon on her blog here: http://www.triandbehappy.blogspot.com/) My sister rocks. End of story 🙂
Thanks for reading 🙂
Heather Hart is an ACSM certified Exercise Physiologist, NSCA Certified Strength and Conditioning Specialist (CSCS), UESCA certified Ultrarunning Coach, RRCA certified Running Coach, co-founder of Hart Strength and Endurance Coaching, and creator of this site, Relentless Forward Commotion. She is a mom of two teen boys, and has been running and racing distances of 5K to 100+ miles for over a decade. Heather has been writing and encouraging others to find a love for fitness and movement since 2009.
Kati
That’s awesome! I quit the race 3 times (I mean, I was done with the race, done with triathlon, done with coaching – you get the drift), but somehow still finished. RR will be up on my blog tommorow 🙂
PS – I think I saw your sister on the run!
Velma
You rocked it and so did your sister!! Enjoy some well deserved rest!
Mel-2nd Chances
how awesome that you got to meet another bloger! Sorry it was a tough marathon for you, but way to get it done.. if they were easy, everyone could do one, right? CONGRATS to both you and your sister!! You are both inspiration!!!
Melanie Tait (Mel Tries to Run)
Well done to you guys! You’re amazing!
Marci
Wow, congrats to both you and your sister, what an awesome moment to witness.
Steel Springs
Hi! I’m new to blogging and have been enjoying your posts. Congratulations to you and your sister!
Kerrie T.
Wow. That’s all I can say. You have an amazing spirit. I’m so glad you decided to finish. And congrats to your sister, too!
Mel -Tall Mom on the Run
“Pink and purple, to match my shirt. I don’t care how old you are, glow sticks, outside at night, are FUN!” Your subtle humor and vivid writing style is captivating Heather.
I felt your struggle..and your mind go through ALL of the scenarios of giving up. But you didn’t and that is AMAZING! Sounds like Animal crackers are your new Gu.
Hugs to you and your sister. Off to read her Blog too..
Thomas
CONGRATULATIONS, that was one lengthy blog post worth reading! 🙂
Mama Simmons
Awesome. Nice job sticking with it when you wanted to quit. Clearly it was a carbohydrate issue bc it sounds like once you got some sugar in you, you were able to think more clearly! Carbs fuel our brains as much as they do our bodies during endurance exercise. 🙂
Congrats to your sister too! Good for her!! And yes, that is one honkin’ medal!!
Sabrina @ Twiggles and Trunks
i always cry when i read your blog. always always always. Joelle is passed out across my lap & i think snot just dripped on her ear because i’m a blubbering mess. high five Pal & x2 high fives for Holly.
L.A. Runner
Never, never quit on your dream. You WILL BQ, and yes, it might take 20 marathons. So what, right? Congrats to your sister!
Becca
YEAH!! Congratulations! What an inspiration to see how you were able to talk yourself back into the game. Most people would have just given up.
Running 365
Yay for you and your sister! I normally kind of skim race reports, but your story was so compelling that I sat and read it all.
Jenn
You are so right about remembering what it’s all about. It IS all about doing what you love. Sounds like it turned out to be a great time. Congrats!!
Running and living
Congrats to you and your sister. I think we learn from every race. Good for you for not giving up when you felt so horrible. It’s times like this that show us who we really are.
Tri Mommy
CONGRATS! Sometimes just not giving up is the win.
The irony… I read your sister’s blog too!
Jennifer
This is a great RR — you’re right about the fastest times not always being the best races. When I’m having a crummy time I will come back and re-read this post. Thank you for sharing.
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Morgan
Holy crap! Congrats to you both!
David
Heather, I loved your race report from B2B. Trying to get mine written over the next day or two but I’m so exhausted and work is in full swing again.
A couple of thoughts: You ran a (roughly) 5:00 marathon at Baltimore only a few weeks ago. That’s a rough course (some decent hills, roads are horrible) and you’re probably not 100% recovered. Don’t beat yourself up that you had challenges in Wilmington only a month after doing that.
Two key lessons here: When things get dark (mentally) you need to eat something. It sounds like you learned that the hard way this weekend. You can’t run a marathon without taking on calories. Secondly, never make a snap decision (such as leaving cold weather gear behind) that overrides a plan you established in advance such as before mental fatigue and while looking at weather reports. You almost certainly are not thinking as clearly at that moment. It got quite chilly out there. I even wore a knit cap coming out of T2.
Your race report was inspiring and I’m glad you pulled through it and finished strong. Those bridges were painful and you’re 100% right about the course being REALLY dark in some places, which also has a mental impact associated with it.
In closing, I thought I was done being teary-eyed over this race.. until I saw the video of your sister coming through the Finish Line. That pretty much broke me down again.
Wear that Finisher shirt with pride — you were part of a team that did 140.6 miles — it doesn’t matter if your realm of responsibility was limited to the run. If that mattered, they would already say ‘relay’ on them.
Great job!
Jo Lynn
Congratulations Heather! How inspiring you are in your story.
You’re very proud of your sister. How awesome is that!! Congratulations Holly! 😉
hqm
hey! it’s me heather! congratulations on an amazing accoplishment! please…no worries about not chatting with me, i realize you had a big day ahead of you! i was just glad that i said hello…i didn’t even know you were going to be there, but when you got in line behind me, i thought that looks like “run faster mommy”…small world, glad we connected!
best,
h.
shellyrm
What an amazing journey!! You are awesome to have fought to see that finish! And how great that your sister was doing it too!
celmore
Congratulations! Great race report. Very inspiring.
Twincerely,Olga
So awesome!!!! You did it!! Your sister too!!! You do deserve to wear that shirt!!What a nice race packet!
Your so right it’s all about doing the one thing that we love”RUNNING”!!!Woo~Hoo!!!!
Nicole
Wow…Your sister IS a rockstar! I’m just in awe! How great!! I’m so sorry the marathon didn’t go as planned for you…but you always have such a good attitude post-race! Have you tried Immodium AD before a race? I’m telling you…it’s the only way I can run long distances (enjoyably).
Zoë
Wow, what a race report! Your mile play-by-play was so intense. I’m so glad that you just decided to finish and to enjoy it…that’s very hard to do. Congrats on an awesome race! AND congrats to your sis! FANTASTIC!
lindsay
Congrats to you and your sister!! Sure sounds like a tough course, but you persevered like the endurance athlete you are! Maybe you need more animal crackers on future race days?
Mile Posts by Dorothy Beal
I just found your blog!! I love the name :0) My daughter always tells me to run faster…to which I usually say in a pleading voice back – I’m running as fast as I possibly can…we will be finished soon!!
Meg Kathleen
Congrats to you and your sister! I am beyond inspired!
The Happy Runner
Your sister DOES rock! And you rock for sticking with it.
Rest up!
Mama
Great job digging deep and persevering AND even managing to enjoy the latter miles.
And huge congrats to your sister!
MCM Mama
Jenn
COngratulations! We were honored to volunteer at the B2B again this year. All of you athletes are an inspiration!
lara
Congrats!!!!!!!!! I’m so proud of you. You finished the race. Keep it up.
Heather
Congrats to you, and a huge congrats to your sister! What a fun race to be part of.
Running mommy
I LOVE reading your blogs! Thank you! You have inspired my running and also have inspired me to write a blog. I hope some people will read it and not be too bored. Thanks for being an inspiration!
You and your sister are AWESOME!!
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Amanda
Wow, I just teared up watching your sister cross the finish line. That’s so awesome! I’m sorry you had a rough run, but I’m glad that you were able to turn it into a positive. You ran a marathon…that is a big accomplishment anyway you look at it!
Oz Runner
Super props to you and your sister…that is amazing. Great race report!
Nancy Toby
“I started off only drinking water and taking 2 sports beans every 2 miles. I didn’t bring gel, I didn’t bring nuun.”
Was that your race plan?
You’ve got plenty of very fast marathons in your legs, if you put a smart race plan in place and execute it on race day. I’m just sayin’. Don’t give up on the marathon, just take away the lessons from the bad race days and use them in your next races!
Marlene
What an incredible experience! Thanks for sharing, and CONGRATS!
Ron
Your report gives me a good idea where a lot of your new energy came from… when you saw Holly out there. And no, I can’t blame you! 🙂
Congrats on hanging in there and getting to the finish! I was happy to have you on my team!
aron
amazing job lady!!!! congrats 🙂
aschumitz
Just read your sister’s blog and can I just say that I got quite choked up!!! You are two very inspirational ladies 🙂
Kristin
What a blast to read this post. makes me want to run a race tomorrow. I love all the detail. Nice job to you and your sis!
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