I’ve heard of people having post-race depression before. It seems to be something that I’ve always associated with plaguing the Ironman community. Nearly a year of training that leads up to one 16 hour or less event and then…
I mean, it makes sense. For months and months you strictly follow a training calendar. Every smaller race you do, every thing you eat, every hour of sleep, is done with the intention of getting you closer to your goal. Faster, stronger, better. One of my favorite analogies is that you are “banking” fitness. Each push up, each rep, each mile run…is “money” in the race bank. And you slowly build that savings, until race day arrives and you spend every last cent, totally draining the account.
I find myself there today. Not from an Ironman, but from the 11+ hours I spent *almost* completing the 28 + ish mile Spartan Ultra Beast. I spent my entire fitness savings this past weekend…except I have nothing to show for it. I did not finish. I have no finishers medal, I have no finishers t shirt. And the material “stuff”is irrelevant really, I just feel unsettled. Unfinished.
I have PSD- Post Spartan Depression.
Now granted, it could be way worse. I am not seriously injured or anything ….just cut, bruised, scraped, and chemical burns (no joke) in typical Spartan fashion. Nothing out of the ordinary and nothing that sets me back from future training.
I’ve already been asked by a few people “what’s next?” and I honestly have no idea.